I threw my running shoes away today. It was a big decision: This means that, when life gets uncomfortable and I feel overwhelmed, I need to stay present.
I’ve had them for a lot of years. They were developed through a number of situations, wounds and dynamics that caused me to “exit.” (Old Snagglepuss had nothing over me!)
There are lots of ways to run:
Burying oneself in activities and obligations
Becoming so involved in others, there is no room for oneself
Avoiding deep thought or conversation
Drinking and drugging
And oh so many more
Sometimes, running is wise. If you are in a hurtful situation, please have the good sense to get out of there!
Then, there is the running that hurts instead of helping, when relationships can’t grow or we are so outside of ourselves we can’t be present. This often happens when we have been through trauma. At the time, it was a helpful tool, but later, it will kill us, sometimes physically; most times emotionally.
What color are your running shoes? How do you escape the pain of your past and the challenges of your present? what will it take for you to throw them away? Who will help you?
For me, the choice to stop running is wonderful! I feel whole and free; I can be present to myself and others; joy, peace, hope, love and beauty are mine.